Wednesday, March 7, 2012

My heart bleeds

My heart bleeds

knowing that I will never get to hold you

I will never get to look u in the eyes

I will never get to sing u a lullaby

My heart bleeds

Because I wanted you my whole life

You made me feel scared but strong

Weak but not defeated

I thought I was prepared for the task ahead of me

But God said it wasn't time

Right now I feel robbed of my opportunity

But in the morning I will remember that it is just on reserve

For this is meant for me, but God has bigger plans for you

Up above I know you will make me proud

You were needed more there

For before getting there you were an angel and always will be

My heart bleeds

because I see the pain in your daddys eyes

He loved you since he knew of ur conception

And he fell more in. love with each passing day

Not knowing you would only be with us for a short while...

We may try again, but no one will ever replace you

We love you more than you will ever know....or do you?

I feel now that your uncle came to tell me you had to go, but he left before getting out the words.

He knew I would b crushed

He didn't want to have to break my heart twice...

I wanted to tell you all about him, but now he can tell u himself

May the both of you rest in paradise...

My heart will forever bleed

without my sweet sweet Blessing...Mommy loves u always rip 3.7.12 <3


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Saturday, March 3, 2012

Write my pain...

Sometimes u make me feel like I'm not there

I try to express my deepest emotion to u and it's as if I was talking to thin air

Just when I think u r finally getting it and understanding where I'm coming from FOR REAL, I'm suddenly faced with the reality that I was wrong

 How could I have not noticed things were rockin to this song?

Why am I putting in 100% and in return getting 50? Why do things always end up here, where I'm left drowning in a pool of tears, and it's  off you go to your gaming haven...

Did nothing at all cross your mind to tell you this just makes me feel worse, to see u enjoying yourself while I suffer in silence?

Where the fuck is your empathy? Your level of comfort is at a all time low, Leaving me empty with no where to go.

What is the point of expressing myself to you? Just so u can pick me up then put me back down like an old shoe?

If you ever take the time to read this, understand that my love runs deeper than any ocean on this earth, but I'm a woman and the shit u do hurts. I hope one day you'll get it before it's too late....






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Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Dont Forget Me...

Please don't forget about me...

We are now miles and miles away
But your sweet scent is still on the tip of my nose

Please don't forget about me...

From the very essence of your being I felt alive
As though magnetic neutrons pumped through my veins
Your embrace made me feel like the world could try me,
but they could never get past your love

Please don't forget about me...

Looking out at the distant plains, I can recall the good times we shared over pizza and movies
Never thinking the day would come that we would be divided by death...
I love you more than the stars in the sky could ever show


 Please...dont forget about me....I'll never forget about you

L05t

Times like this makes me feel so lost Somewhere in the midst of everything The wires in my head have been crossed Clouds of time, like smoke from an exhaust If I can buy the old me back,someone please tell me the cost No longer can I sit and wonder Can't continue to let this foster The trauma to my heart is not gettin any softer This is too complicated for any bullshit docta Maybe one more shot of vodka...Maybe one more shot of da 'roc My soul is already in shock Traces of blood from my empty wounds Big as little rock