My heart bleeds
knowing that I will never get to hold you
I will never get to look u in the eyes
I will never get to sing u a lullaby
My heart bleeds
Because I wanted you my whole life
You made me feel scared but strong
Weak but not defeated
I thought I was prepared for the task ahead of me
But God said it wasn't time
Right now I feel robbed of my opportunity
But in the morning I will remember that it is just on reserve
For this is meant for me, but God has bigger plans for you
Up above I know you will make me proud
You were needed more there
For before getting there you were an angel and always will be
My heart bleeds
because I see the pain in your daddys eyes
He loved you since he knew of ur conception
And he fell more in. love with each passing day
Not knowing you would only be with us for a short while...
We may try again, but no one will ever replace you
We love you more than you will ever know....or do you?
I feel now that your uncle came to tell me you had to go, but he left before getting out the words.
He knew I would b crushed
He didn't want to have to break my heart twice...
I wanted to tell you all about him, but now he can tell u himself
May the both of you rest in paradise...
My heart will forever bleed
without my sweet sweet Blessing...Mommy loves u always rip 3.7.12 <3
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
My heart bleeds
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Write my pain...
Sometimes u make me feel like I'm not there
I try to express my deepest emotion to u and it's as if I was talking to thin air
Just when I think u r finally getting it and understanding where I'm coming from FOR REAL, I'm suddenly faced with the reality that I was wrong
How could I have not noticed things were rockin to this song?
Why am I putting in 100% and in return getting 50? Why do things always end up here, where I'm left drowning in a pool of tears, and it's off you go to your gaming haven...
Did nothing at all cross your mind to tell you this just makes me feel worse, to see u enjoying yourself while I suffer in silence?
Where the fuck is your empathy? Your level of comfort is at a all time low, Leaving me empty with no where to go.
What is the point of expressing myself to you? Just so u can pick me up then put me back down like an old shoe?
If you ever take the time to read this, understand that my love runs deeper than any ocean on this earth, but I'm a woman and the shit u do hurts. I hope one day you'll get it before it's too late....