When I needed you to be there
When u said u wud care
The times we used to share
When no other bond could compare
Where the hell were u?
Through the up and down
Times you promised to be around
Your shell was there but no sound
The evil cHilling like a loose hound
Where the hell were u?
When in times of doubt
You weren't there to help figure it out
Pain cleaving to my soul, such a terrible bout
When I needed to be digged out from under the grout
Where the hell were u?
Feelin boxed in and it's gettin outdated
Events starting to become duplicated
Not knowing who to trust anymore
Anger burning my kindness away to the core
Mind spinning out of control, can't find the brakes
To have back my peace of mind, I'll do whatever it takes
Although perplexed on both sides
I will endure it til I get to the end of our lives
If I'm right they say I'm wrong
If I'm wrong they it was so all along
So tired of giving all of me to people and gettin nothing in return
But faded memories I wish I could burn
Loyalty no longer means shit
You are just floating thru life, Wondering where do you fit
Sometimes I wish I could get a day pass to Heaven
Just to be able to see those that truly loved me, 24/7
Feeling alone, no one really a true friend
Not willing to downplay my beliefs and morals to gain one or two fake ones in the end
If you really had my back you would show it
And no matter how we fuss figh or argue, I would still know it
One thing I am certain, is that to know me is to love me
And if your love is subject to waiver,
Then for you I have no favor
I'd rather die knowing the life I lived was true
Never hiding behind bullshit in order to paint a facade that my dark grey skies are blue
I wear my truth in strength for I am not ashamed of the choices I've made
I have gone thru the fire and still came out of the shade
Having too many people in your life is overrated
I'd rather fuck wit those who aren't so fuckin jaded
Save your hundreds of followers for someone who cares
I bet you can NEVER ask any of them to come wipe your tears
I vow from this day forward to love myself enough for me and you
So I no longer have to sit in a sea of my own tears because you lack being true
Fuck it, I'm grown
I'll make it on my own
