Not understanding why I have to get shit from all sides. All I did was say what was on my brain. In my heart. But that apparently I must keep inside. Idk whether I'm coming or going. Trying to find a way back to myself and motherfuckers keep trying my fucking patience. Like wtf is the problem? Wtf can't I have my emotions as well as understand points on both sides? As if to say it is fucking rocket science. IT'S NOT, FUCKING DICKHEAD! IT'S CALLED BEING HUMAN! I am constantly reminded of how much of a fuck up I am but yet I press thru in the meanwhile. Nothing much more than that I can do. Once again what I deal with has been diminished to nothing....
