When will you see that I am affected
I try too hard to keep your feelings protected
That I am the one left wounded in the end
Should've kept it real instead of pretend
That I was ok when u slacked
When in truth it was anger that away I packed
So Am I partially to blame? Maybe so
But here is one thing I do know
EverYone has to take account for their part
Something you failed to do from the start
Cuz if that was what you first chose
I wouldn't b ready to leave you to tHese popcorn hoes
I refuse to accept less than what I'm worth
No matter how much you try to charm me with your gerth
As women we always love hard
And we never want to have to pull your card
But when we have been in the past abused
Sometimes shit gets blurry and can b easily confused
Never do we want to feel used and unappreciated
Time can't heal all wounds until past has completely faded
Which never happens til our demise
So please don't act like my words come as a surprise
"I am Jamaican. I am African American. I am beautiful. I am courage. I am power. I am love. Ain't I a woman?" ;0)
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Gotta let you know
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Dickspiration
As your luv enters me
My mind goes numb
The way you beat it ever so gently
Like an African drum
Mmmm mmmm mmmm
You sure know how to make me weak
Grand Canyon ain't got shit on your peak
There's levels to this shit man
You make my yoni snap back like rubber bands
Have MERCY!
Make me speak in tongues
Oh I love how you give me sum
That yaya dada make me holla
Lovin how you give it to me propa
You create an undeniable inferno inside me
One that doesn't come for free
One stroke, two strokes three strokes four
Do with me what you will, from the bedroom to the front door
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Acceptance is joy
I have a chance to be everything I wanted to be
The day will soon come wHen they'll all believe
Just what I was destined to achieve
Loving me means accepting my flaws
Once you do that, u know longer feel their claws
Their words ripping into every inch of your soul, bringing ur breath to a pause
I have a chance to be everything they never thought I could be
Take your best shot but trust, I won't fall
The writing's on the wall
I didn't make it this far to turn back
I worked hard for this and that's a fact
So fuck all you haters and perpetrators
Friday, August 16, 2013
U.O.E.N.O.
Inside these four walls many do not see
But yet they claim they know me
Everyday is a struggle for my voice to be respected
I walk around keeping my heart and soul protected
At the end of the day I guess we're all part of the game
We live our lives differently but all come from the same
I pray for the Lord's strength to fight another day
For we all are gonna leave this earth the same way
We do what we gotta do to get By
Some staying the same, others reaching a new High
The truth will always come to light in place of dark deception
The evil of others spreading like a mass infection
Gotta stay ahead of the game and never allow it to consume my soul
Cuz once it takes over, the shit is hard to control
Friends become enemies, enemies become friends
Sometimes you can peep it before it happens, but it all depends
That's why I keep my circle tight
And stay ready to go to jail for any of them, day and night
I never walk into a room ready to cause confrontation
But better believe I'm ready to flex in any situation
Don't come for me unless I send for you
And if you wanna try me, just watch what the fuck I do....
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Faded Glory
Can't get u off my mind
Steady thinking about u all the time
You got my heart in a war zone
Expecting to be alone
Our conversations repeatedly playing in my head
Always the last thing on my mind before going to bed
Thinking of you is a pleasant distraction
A beautiful nightmare...reality visible by just a fraction
I never wanted things to end
Now I can only be a friend
You put such a move on my heart
The surgeon couldn't tell our beats apart
My love for you then ran deep
I would've done anything to make that leap
But as it seems the cost of love was too much for you to pay
And I quite frankly couldn't stay
I had to do what was best for me
I refused to play second fiddle to she
The passion I had for you can NEVER be denied
Not even to this day Not even if I tried
Sometimes I wish it was just as obvious that you felt the same for me
But it is clear how things will now and for always be
So I guess farewell are all the words I have left now
To live with these emotions for you forever I don't know how
I hope that love will come back around for you again
Just know that no matter the distance I will always consider you to be my close personal friend
Friday, June 14, 2013
Truly Madly Deeply
Many times I feel misunderstood
So much shit I would take back if I could
It sucks when you open up to someone about how you feel
And you're left feeling like a mouse on display in a spinning wheel
To the outside world it seems like you're having a ball
When on the inside you're feeling like your lungs have reached capacity
Ready to collapse
You find yourself in this race against time
To find out why your life is going down this line
Heart steady pacin
As your feet are steady racin
No different from love
They say there's no way you could love more than one
And to that I say you're dumb
You cannot help your emotions
There are no pills
No potions
Just the raw emotion you were born with
That shit that'll make you plead the fifth
Cuz no one will ever understand
Not child, woman or man
The truth is sometimes a hard pill to swallow
Something we all demand but are afraid to follow
I have no problem admitting my flaws
Especially if it will ultimately help the cause
I don't think we will ever find that one person that has it all
But we all deserve to have someone who is at all times willing to catch us when we fall
This goes out to those stuck in the matrix of the mind
Where true love gets lost in translation even though it seems so easy to find
Had I been able to speak my peace long ago
Who knows how things would have been on the other side of the door
For now and always I will remain
Truly Madly Deeply...
But not in vain
Excuse me as I kiss the sky
Bout to roll up a fatty and get high.....
P.e.a.c.e.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Sweetest Taboo
There's something about the way you touched me that drove me crazy
The shit you did to me made my vision hazy
The rapid o's are hard to believe
And even harder to deceive
The way you dissected every part of me was amazing
And in the end you'd always go out guns blazing
You had my heart on fiya
Burning with true desire
No one will ever compare
Nor shall anyone dare
You are the ultimate pleasure
And shall be a lucky wife's treasure
You'll always wonder what if
Just as that cocky will always get stiff
Just as I remember the joy I will always remember the pain
And I will always think of you when it begins to rain
The sweetest thing I've ever known
You're like a kiss on a collar bone
Xoxo u so fine
Can I still get a 69?
Every time I hear Kem I'll think of you
And all the little tricks you used to do
That made the coochi go whoop whoop
Ooh sweetest taboo
I'll always love u.....
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Mirrors
Like sand in an hourglass
These are the days of our lives
We're all pawns in the Devil's game
Abiding time
As we tread the waters
We look out to the daunting sea
Giving back the reflection of who we really are
As the clock ticks
We come closer to our demise
We seek the Most High for guidance
And what does He show us
But the reality of where we are in our lives
Despite the Devil'plans
We must move diligently and steadfast
Towards that of which is promised to us
So when the mirrors of life give you a reflections of yourself that you may not like
You must take responsibility
Make changes
And make a difference
You won't get a second chance to get this shit right....
Friday, March 29, 2013
The rain
The rain... It feeds you the rawest emotions
Straight, no chaser
Can't handle the pressure, shit is rising like vapors
can't stand the rain beating against my window pane waiting for sunshine again
tell me weather man, when will this end?
The rain and tears flowing as one
Becoming synonymous, forming a bond
The clouds as grey as my heart
You really can't tell the two apart
When shall we again see sunny skies?
Are these really and truly the days of our lives?
Bills, house, husband, child, cat, violence around town
So many things on my mind, stessin, feelin bogged down
I need a release, but see none in sight
Trying to be a strong woman with all my might
But having to deal with all this shit ain't right
I close my eyes and turn my attention on the Lord
Asking Him to reveal the answers and attack my problems with His almighty sword
Monday, March 25, 2013
thin line
there's a thin line between love and hate
the side u choose to be on decides your fate
you wonder if you should love the ones you hate and hate the ones you love so deep
no matter what you decide, to someone, you are always the creep
you risk it all for those you love because you love hard, a fighter til the end
and in the end there you are, left feeling as cheap as an infomercial on late night CNN
the person you loved soo dearly quickly becomes the person you despise
because they suddenly unfolded right before your eyes
your hurt, your heart bruised and battered
while they act as if shit between you never really mattered
you are left to pick up the pieces and get your life back
it's a lonely road getting it on track
Monday, March 11, 2013
these tears
these tears i cry sure won't b the last
as i continue to strive for more and put my best foot forward
i keep getting haunted by the past.
i thought for sure that those negative emotions would pass
like sands in an hourglass
guess i was wrong afterall
saw the rise but never anticipated the fall
i took the dive and answered the call
but maybe it wasn't for me
only more time will truly tell
what is to become of this latest spell
i wonder if u will b able to notice that i fell
it will surely b part of the story i tell
without the testimony, you can't appreciate the struggle or understand why in the midst of the storm, shit is goin so well
my days may not always b swell
but it is better than some folks definition of hell
Monday, March 4, 2013
Jibberish
Rotating around like the sun around the Earth.
Living life day to day trying to figure out what it's really worth.
Good times, bad times, and we've lived through them all.
All standing out like cracks in the wall.
Like a road winding down, you wonder where it will end.
You wonder who will be around, if you'll even have a friend.
You sit by the window watching the birds fly by.
While you roll a Dutch Master, about to get high.
The sky looks about three shades of blue, and so does your heart.
If you put it in comparison with the sky, no one would tell either apart.
As you continue to gaze, the clouds begin to turn gray.
Like those areas in your life that you wish would just go the fuck away....
*THROWBACK EDITION* I AM ME...PHENOMENALLY
*THROWBACK EDITION* -BONUS READ- BLACK HISSSTRY
We remember the marches and boycotts of the 60's and how our ancestors fought for our rights as individuals.
We wish black history was embedded in the minds of today's urban youth.
We often forget about the struggles of the past, which as a result leads to failure of the present due to no sense of a cultured path.
We ask for forgiveness from the leaders of the past, as we strive for another black unity that will last.
You said you would give us equality, but you never gave.
You wanted us to "go back to Africa" so why did you bring us here and make us your slave?
You tried to tighten our shackles, but we took them off.
You failed to see our true potential, but we did and now we are better off.
Monday, February 25, 2013
*THROWBACK EDITION-BONUS READ* A DAMN GOOD FANTASY
*THROWBACK EDITION-BONUS READ* SINGLE LADIES
All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies (All the single ladies)
All the single ladies
Wuh uh oh uh uh oh oh uh oh uh uh oh
Wuh uh oh uh uh oh oh uh oh uh uh oh
Sunday, February 24, 2013
neva eva
neva eva did i think u wud betray me
u carry yourself like you're such a fucking lady
All the while bitch u were being shady
fucking ur besties man in the 380
now u fucked up havin his baby
now dat niggaz ghost like Patrick swayzey
bitch u dumb crippled and crazy
taking medication on a daily
bitch get up to wash her ass barely
now u walking around looking scary
shudda neva eva crossed me
now the only thing fuckin u is karma
and dat bitch dint leave home w.out her Lama
ooooooh