It's funny to me how people think that the things they have in their life makes them better than anybody else under God's light. But if you were to dissect them like a science project, you would realize that they are hiding behind those material things and that just aint right. You run across people that chant everyday about how they are blessed and such a Godly soul. But if you listened to the things coming out of their mouth, you would look at them and wonder how someone with God in their heart is so cold. You have snobby people in this world that seem to believe that because of what they have accomplished, they should be worshiped. But little do they know, no one is paying attention to their bullshit. There are females in this world that seem to think that they are God's gift to men. But if you ask them about the last time they had a man, they couldn't tell you when. Some females (as you see I cant call them women) cant seem to grasp the idea when a man no longer wants to be a part of their life. They begin to act out in jealousy and fear, begging him to keep her as his friend instead of gaining a wife.
I have a certain friend in my life that doesn't choose his friends wisely sometimes. Some may say he chooses then for the material things they posses or for what they can do for him. Most of them are cool and their aura is so genuine. But there is this one that is different from all the others he surrounds himself with. This 1 thinks she is a better person than me....just cuz she has a college degree. She doesn't understand the real fundamentals of a woman and how we operate, either because she is still finding out what it means to be a real woman herself, or because she just chooses to be a lost little girl among the living. This 1 assumes that I have some sort of vendetta against her. Not realizing that the guilty ones will always make themselves obvious. This 1 has done just that. She believes that she can use him to her advantage and that her sinister plans will soon prevail. This 1 seems to have it in her head that I have self esteem issues and I am insecure because of the feelings I have had for my friend for almost 8 years, but if you took a look at her, you would see that she has features only her mother or a man that wants her money would love. On one hand you would say, why be mad? My thoughts are like this, it is a shame that someone that spent money on a college education can be so ignorant. So why does he continue to befriend her you ask? That you would have to ask him. Maybe he feels that she provides him with something that I don't. Who knows. But yet it is me that he has pledged his love to. Misery seems to always love company and I guess that this is something that my friend seems to strive for. What he doesn't seem to understand is that this female that he feels he knows so much about doesn't want him to be happy with any other woman in his life but her. He is oblivious to the fact that she has said things and done things to try to come between us. She would love for me to pack my things and go about my business. And she is real close to getting her wish. See, what my friend doesn't understand is that I have goals and aspirations that are bigger than him and the ignorance she posses. It's hard to try building a life with someone when they have both positive and negative influences that they are bringing to the table. So why exit and let her get the upper hand, you ask? Because too many times females take women out of their character and these women find themselves behind prison walls. I know how the story goes. My own fam has been there. I am determined to not go that route. But at the same time, this 1 chooses to test me. The fate of my future is more important to me than any man I love or any family I wish to have with him. If he wants to have people like that in his life, that is fine. I cannot stop him. But what I can and choose to stop is getting myself caught up in situations with this 1 that is going to hinder the possibilities for all the blessings God has yet to bestow upon me. I have so many positive things to look forward to in this lifetime before the next. Why let someone that he has in his life take that away from me? So as she has stated, he will try to mold me into a clone of her. But I am something that she will never be.A real woman. I am me.... phenomenally.
GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.
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