Freestyle #phuckyorhymes

Really beginning to get numb to the bullshit
I just don't wanna speak anymore to anyone
No one can seem to understand where my point of view is
But I'm always supposed to remember them in their emotions
I have to deal with the excuse ppl have for hurting me and be ok with that
Fuck it
I am just destined for this I guess
Wtf else is there to think
I just feel like I'm always looked at like I'm a fuckin dummy
I am not a rug for ppl to walk all over
I love hard and no one goes that hard for me
EVER
After awhile you get tired
You feel defeated
Helpless
And lost
When everyone you love hurts you
Wtf else are you supposed to do
When you feel like you have no voice
Ppl treat u like you're nothing
They are quick to dismiss you
As if you are a stranger
As if they know nothing about your pain
As if they were in some sense punishing you for your disobedience
I just want to disappear
I want them to hurt like I hurt
Then tell me if it feels good
I've been betrayed worse by friends and family than the average person but I still tread the course. ....
Until now.
There has to be a change.
Ppl don't know what they've got til it's gone

Go figure, should have known....

After thinking things could go right they go wrong
I never thought or expected it to turn this way but should have knOwn
The abused will always go back to the abuser
No matter who is colateral damage at the end of the day
A person will risk their entire soul just to feel that venom
Because they don't know what a precious creature of God they are
I will never again put my faith in a friend
For God says to trust no man
Regardless of what the case may be
I will never put shit past anyone again
I now know that my life is solely in my hands
No matter what role others try to play in your life
YOU can only depend and rely on YOU