Who the hell is Bea?!?!?

I was born early on May 28th, 1985 inside Brigham and Women's hospital to Yvonne Binns Knight and Milton Edward Daley. Two Jamaicans who came to this country for what I assume to be a better life. In contrast, for blacks in America, it wasn't that much better back then, but that's neither here nor there. I appreciate them for taking that risk and making that sacrifice so that I could have a better opportunity as a child. My mom I must give much props to. She dealt with a lot being a single mother that I will never understand. I raised hell. She bitched. Everything went back to normal. Every time. I think she just worked so hard that she just figured I would figure out how to be a woman eventually and slow down. As an adult, we now have a much better relationship, and through our thirst for Christ, are a better mother-daughter team than ever before! I thank God for her....

I was always a daddy's girl...up until I first witnessed him cheating on his first wife. I was crushed. I know now that not all relationships are perfect, and when someone feels like they are lacking something, they search elsewhere. It's human nature a lot of times. Not that is is right, but it happens. My dad has always made sure to be in our lives and it is something I can say now that I thank God for. He is cooler now to me than when I was younger, I will say that. Because of his choices, we fought a lot. But now, looking back, I feel blessed that I knew my father and he knew me. A lot of different moods, phrases I say, even the way I laugh, reminds me of him. I love my daddy!!!

I lived in the burbs in Randolph and Framingham. I also lived in Jamaica for some time. I fought through sexual and emotional abuse as a child, as a result I tend to have anger issues from time to time, but who doesn't? I have four brothers, two sisters, two nephews and two nieces I love to life! I tell a lot of jokes. I think I get that from my dad. Singing as well. I had a record deal with an independent label when I was 15. I think I missed out on a lot of opportunities because my parents were more focused on work and their personal life than the interest of us. I was dropped a year later due to skipping school and not keeping up my grades, which was part of the deal. I find myself now trying to reinvent myself musically. Making the music take on a new meaning in my life in regards to expression. When you listen to my tracks, I want you to see, feel, and live what I breathe. Deep right? I get that way sometimes. I have grown from De-lay to Montego Blu. From R&B to Neo Soul. I am also exploring some alter egos....Rawbecca Redd for starters ;)

I have lost a few fmily members throughout my lifetime, but nothing hurt me more than losing my brother Shain to a drunk driver Dec 31, 2005. He and I fought a lot growing up, but he was always my pal. He was always there for me when I needed him; when no one else could be there. I remember how left out he seemed to feel because of having to adopt my father as his own. He seemed so much to want to know his own father, but never actually expressed it. I miss him so much that it hurts me to talk about it a lot of times. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I had the displeasure of having to identify his body, plan his funeral, and sing at his homegoing service. This affected my faith for a long time after that, but I now understand that God had a greater purpose for taking him and everytime I mourn him, God hears me and comforts my heart. I WILL see him again one day. I will always be his sister and he will always be my brother. I miss you!!!

Due to my brother's passing, I moved from Boston to Virginia just after my 21st birthday. I went through an unhealthy relationship with a high school ex and during that time met the man of my dreams, the one who I was destined to spend my life with. I now value myself as a significant part of my family with my soon to be husband Jeremy. He has been such a blessing in my life that words just cannot simplify my gratitude to God for making this a reality. Jeremy has turned out to be everything I have always hoped my husband would be. I am so excited to be marrying him soon. He tells me all the time how much he loves me, how beautiful I am, how he cherishes me...and it feels so good! After all the storms I have been through, God loved me enough to ordain someone to be in my life to love me like Jesus loved the church. There's nothing more that I could ask for. Material things mean nothing to me compared to his love. We have had beautiful homes and have been homeless, but our love has never staggered. It's been four years and I am still very much in love and in awe at how this awesome man of God loves, cares, and nurtures me!

 This is who I am. Roberta Maureen Daley Earvin aka Bea....